The nightmare continued…

So here’s the rest of the story…. (I’m gonna make this short because I’m bored of this story before I even tell it!)  I ended up going to Home Depot and buying a new hookup kit with copper tubing and a real pipe cutter.  Got home, started hooking the thing up and instantly mess up the compression nut that connects the copper pipe to the wall.  I was pissed.  So I went back to Home Depot and bought a couple more of these connecting compression nut fitting things.  I tried again and this time it seemed like I did it right at first but then the damn thing started leaking.  I was perplexed and angry at the same time.  I now moved on to the 2nd one I bought (this scenerio was exactly why I bought 2).  Again,  thought it was fine, hooked up the water filter andturned the water on.  It worked for about 30 seconds then I started seeing water bead up around the fitting.  I cranked on it with my wrench till I ruined it.  By this time I was approaching a boiling point and grabbed the copper tubing andstarted ripping it around until it finally broke.  I was extremely angry that I couldn’t get this to work.  I decided I was done and that having a water filter on my fridge wasn’t meant to be.  I calmly disconnected the filter (my outburst was over) and placed it in my garbage can.  I took the new copper pipe I bought, along with all the supplies it came with and the pipe cutter and put them back into the packaging.  I pushed my fridge back into place and accepted defeat.  There is kindof a satisfying feeling about dealing with something like that and then just realizing that its not going to happen and moving on from it.  When I put the filter in my garbage and packaged everything back up, the burden was lifted and I felt free.  I’m starting to learn that life has a similar quality to it.  I think I’ve understood the value of fighting through something and pushing against opposition to reach a goal.  I think that’s how I thought everything would be or would have to be (I think this mentality has mostly stemmed from my cancer experience).  I’m now realizing that sometimes that’s necessary but sometimes its also necessary to not fight and to change paths.  Sometimes the opposition in a path isn’t telling me to fight it but simply to avoid it.  This realization has been freeing for me and has re-opened my eyes to the fact that God is guiding my life and its his spirit that will move me from one path to another.  That there is a reason when something I think I want to do isn’t working.  That I need to be open to new opportunities and new paths in my life.  I need to trust and to have faith and to hope.  I don’t need to worry.  I guess this makes me one of those learning computers I heard about in T2

So I’m planning on returning the stuff back to Home Depot and trying to get my money back.  I feel a little bad because some of it is kinda used.  Do they care about that?  I also need to try to figure out how to hook the old copper pipe coming from the fridge back up to the wall.  I can’t handle anymore leaks though. 

My path to filtered water has changed but my water is still filtered.  I pulled out my old britta pitcher that I never really used and have been using it.  The whole process of having to refill it constantly is annoying and I don’t really like it, but the water is better and maybe I’ll learn a little patience along the way

Tags: change, filter, lesson, life, path, patience, water